Well...this is GOD.

WELL...IS THIS IT? IT DEFINATLY IS! Ok so...sorry to have gotten everyones anger and dramatic hopes up. But i dont think the blog i promised is gonna happen. Mostly cause, Jesus has done some amazingly sweet things in my life in the last 24hours.

So yesterday morning, I wrote an enrty in my journal, cussing God out, and saying 'You know, why do you hate me? Cause my life sucks. And if you want me, come and get me. Cause im sick and tired of being the only one in this relationship.'

Then true to his promises, he really delivered. I have been feeling bad the last few weeks, stuff to do with my testimoney and things i havent told certian people about my life, cause i thought i could deal with it by myself. But DTS has really taught me that I need to get it out in the open, cause when its in the light, then satan cant attack me in the dark. So...with that in mind, I've beent alking to our school leader Bonnie, and i am gonna have a chance to share all the deep dark secrets of my soul with the rest of our DTS. Im scared, but extremly excited and its really what i need.

So then...yesterday...Conrad approaced me aand asked my permission to put me on the list for an offering that we were gonna have for four students who were having trouble raising the support for lecture phase, whih was 2935. And i had only paid 100 dollars of it and had 2835 left to pay within a few weeks time. So, I had to go sit at the front with a bowl infront of me and the rest of our group got pieces of paper and thy prayed and asked God WHO they should support and HOW MUCH. So between the four of us (I needed to most) we needed $8000. So we had the offering..and honestly, there were a good number of people putting paper in, but i seriously had more paper than probably people there! God totally worked a miracle. I was prepared for 200-300 (which i would have been so grateful for.) But no.

No way. Jesus was like - Tony, heres what you think...you think I'll provide, but don't think I'll provide enough. And he totally blew me away. So...out of the 8000...we got 5000! and 1700 of it was for me! So...God totally came through for me on that note.

So thinking...'God you have totally proved yourself'. He decided to go a bit further. You see i have had bad cavities (needing filled) in my teeth for afew months, but there is one i like to Darth Cavity. Cause seriously, its like my tooth hates me and is trying to kill me from inside my mouth. I've told like everyone (sorry for complaining) but dentistry costs too much out here, like $80 for a filling!...so i went to my mailbox and inside was a letter, no stamp or anything, so it came from someone on base, that has $80 inside and a note that said 'for your cavity'. Oh my word! haha! Thank you Jesus!...so I thought that was amazing. Well not quite.

Our speaker, Kristy Wilke, was like 'lets do something practical tonight' (we are learning how to hear gods voice) So we had to go out into the neighbourhood and ask God which house to pray for, and what things we needed to pray for. Which scared me at the thought of it! But...i decided, you know what, lets do it! So i was with Molly and Stephanie and we prayed, 'God just make it so clear!'...I had an image of like a fence type thing around the house..wheras Steph didnt. We also had a feeling about a red garage. So we walked by a house that had a red garge and me and steph were like, 'is this it?' And Molly was like 'no.' So we went further on. So we prayed for specifics...'Lord let us walk by a house, and if its the one, can you turn a light on?'..so we are walking...we come to a junction, and we all think, 'lets turn right'. So we did. Then we walked past this house, and a light came on! We knew this was it! And right after that, in the driveway of this house, parked right out side the GARAGE was a car with the license plate letters R-E-D.

We knew this was the house. It was so dark and scary looking, and satan had such a hold on the place. We just started praying to see who the family were, what they were going through and what we should do about it. God totally gave us some specifics. Like it was a hispanic family with a little girl. And for other reasons, that all i can reveal what he said. (although if youw ant to hear how specific he was, just send me a message and i'll tell you so you can pray about it) But we're talking major specific. Like ALL of us felt and knew these things. When we prayed we decided to put our hands ON the house so we could like, put our prayers INTO the house...and oh my word, the light came on, and lit up a rosebush at the house..and in a instant the house looked alot different and we could see flowers and things. It was amazing. So we walked back. And as we passed the first hosue witht he red garage we thought we should pray for, the light came on! Meaning...that God totally stopped that light from coming on when we passed first, casue it was a motion sensor light. God totally led us to the house we prayed for, and totally showed up and spoke to us. It was amazing...like...oh my word.

So then we came back and shared and done these things were we got words for each other and stuff. And its amazing, i feel like Kristy totally opened a door for God to speak to me so easily. And cause my heart was pure from repenting all the crap i had felt earlier that day. God totally brought that back for me. Then Eivind bought me a new Ben and Jerrys ice cream flavour..Turtle Soup!

So today...we were in lecture and Kristy was talking about something..like if you cant hear how God thinks about you, ask him how he thinks about soemone else. And she picked me. So everyone was praying about what God felt for me. Karisse said about how when a child puts on little plays and shows for their parents and the paretns are just like in awe of the child and totally delight in them, that God was like that for me. And Molly and Kyah were just sensing how i make God laugh and he delights in me and i make him smile. Allan was getting a crazy sense of love falling on me and Rachael told me after that God to me was like how she felt watching her nieces ake crazy things. And Kristy told me how God was lifting me up like telling people, 'Look at my son!' And that i was a trophy for God cause he won me. It was so encouraging. Seriously..one day later i feel like a totally new person!

Thank you so much Jesus!

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