Crying shards of glass...

In times like these when things are hectic and life is crazy, the is pure simplicity in the profound.

I'm finding life to be very simple at the minute. I'm either doing something right or something wrong. But that's okay. I'm not perfect. I'm just a simple northern-irish man after God's heart.

I'm feeling sentimental cause this time last year I was living with Glenn, had a job and was preparing for Christmas. This year I am a missionary, have no money, and live with a bunch of people from all over the world. Now I'm not saying I prefer the first situation...but it was definatly more 'cosy'. But this year I am inlove with Jesus more and more and he is becoming the best friend I could have ever wanted. This Christmas I will be in Africa, loving people and loving Jesus.

It has been a crazy year, and as this extravaganza of '2006' ends, I will be loving it. Am i crazy for trying? And crazy for crying? And crazy for loving you?

Sorry...listening to Patsy Cline.

Life is nothing I have expected it to be, but rather an intriguing surprise even to myself. We can never have control. Once we realise that, i think it is easier to give everything to God.

And I've treid and I've tried, but I haven't yet given everything. And the certainty is knowing that it is okay. God will gradually strip me of the tiny things that hold me back. Until then, I will continue living in the freedom I have, and loving the joy that i have found.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

I've got my memories...or have they got me...? (Me last december at a Numinous gig in Dublin....check out Andy Frame looking random. And my red haircolour.)

Why....?

So it happened. It was inevitable. Yet my heart was crushed all the same.

Sally was brutally stabbed in the 2006 season finale of Home and Away. Will she survive? I think yes. But they taunt us with this 'montage' of Sally's life at the end of the finale. Was that to say R.I.P? or to say Happy 18th Anniversairy'? No-one knows. Except the maker of Home and Away.

So...Sally and Brad finally got together. Only 10months after Flynns death, and only 4 months after knowing him. They shared a romantic kiss under the mistletoe and Sally exited to the parking lot to go get ready for their dinner. She was startled by Rocco, who was clearly upset. She tried to talk to him, but all he said was 'He gave me no choice..I'm sorry'. As he pulled Sally in. She gasped. The knife went in.

She fell.

Gasping.

Then slumped to the ground in the midst of Silent Night lyrics "Sleep in heavenly peace. Sleep in heavenly peace." Ironic.

Here is Sally as she was about to be stabbed -



and Sally momentarily after the stabbing -



To see this heart wrenching moment watch my video on my profile...

Will she survive? Who will find her? Who will avenge her?

I better start praying?

(Home and Away does not start back until January 2007) *sob*