Well, as I wrap up my life for the next month here in Bishkek, as I travel through Tajikistan and then into Afghanistan, I've been tidying my room, packing my bags, getting things I need, and doing it all to music.
One song then came on that made me smile like a big girl.
Part Of Your World from The Little Mermaid. I was just listening to it and thinking of certain parts that really amaze me. Then I had to stick on the dvd and see these parts.
'I just don't see how a world that makes such wonderful things could be bad' - What wonderful childlike naivety. I sometimes think is it only Ariel's inexperience with our world that made her think this, or did she really just see the good in everything? Either way, it prompted my mind to go to Good mode. Let's try and see the good in things. She sings about how she wants more, that what she would give to have feet instead of fins. It reminds me sometimes of my own desire for more, where I am at not being good enough, I want more, more, more.
Look at this stuff, isn't it neat? A big pile of junk, our everyday things that Ariel finds wonder in. Ha, it made me think - i don't appreciate what I have. Ariel even says, its not all this stuff that I want, its not gathering objects, but who cares, no big deal, i want more.
I wanna be where the people are, I wanna see, wanna see them dancing. How disappointed I imagine she would be if she came to our world now. People don't seem to have that sense of frivolous fun anymore. Dancing. I love dancing.
Ariel wants to be among people, to know what they know, to FEEL what they feel, if if that is about fire, and how it burns. Burn. The sheer experience of it is amazing to her. She is so fascinated by the things we see everyday, the things we think are negative. She has a sense of wonder at the world that I really want.
Starting tomorrow, I'm off to get it. :)
T.
